"i got my maple syrup, everything, but you"--jewel

hey hey

sooo...yesterday was sept. 11...i was reading my journal from last year and that was when i revisited what i was doing on that day.. you know, it's one of those days where you remember exactly where you were, what you were doing, etc. well i won't relive that moment...but being here in the city that the event occurred in, on the day that it occurred on, 3 years later...well i felt different. i wish that i had taken the time to go down to Ground Zero and experienced that, because i doubt i'll be here again on yesterday's date. but i think about what that entails, and i always feel so somber about that date..and i'm not sure i could have handled going down there at all. at night, you can see the lights from the towers beaming up through the entire city, no matter where you are...that brought on enough emotion for me...and as much as i wanted to take a picture of the beams..i just couldn't bring myeslf to...i just can't bring myself to do that..it bothers me when people go down there and take pictures, it makes my stomach turn..i don't know...if you did it,..oh well..i just can't bring myself too, and i don't think it makes you a bad person for doing it...ok..can i go on about this any longer?

...lighter subject..

yesterday, i went shopping with allison, traci, amanda and lauren, i finally bought something..yes, i have been spending mosto f my money on food and movies..so finally, i thought YES!...whatever. i bought a skirt from necessary clothing that i really liked. what else? well, we found this REALLY great hole in the wall italian restaurant and i had some amazing salmon ravioli...yum! then came back here, chanegd and got ready to go out with steph-ho for her birthday...the best part of the walk to the subway...some random guy telling steph her pants fit real nice...new yorkers.

we met her friend jason and his friend beth down at this bar/restaurant called the blue mill cafe or something, had a drink there, and then moved on to this place called "luke & leroy", which was an 80s club..apparently we were dressed inapproriately, because you had to dress as if you were IN the 80s, caleb had met up with us and so there was now 5 of us, and the bouncer or whatever said he could only let 3 of us in, so we decided to go to this place called Niagra..it was sort of a hole in the wall way off where i'd never been before, (that's not saying much), and we went down to the basement and got our groove on..i had SOO Much fun..at one point i think i was dancing on the little platform all by myself giving the girl who was pole dancing some healthy competition...niiice, except i wasn't wearing a sequined bikini, but ya know? i'm ok with that..lol. so then caleb, steph and i shared a cab home..steph lost my jacket...but i mean that's ok...anywhooo, great night..best night of my new york experience..so far...

anywhoo, i have nothign today but talk to my andy :) i love him! it's 4pm and now lauren and i are getting ready to go to the garment district...yay for clothes..if i buy anything today...apparently i spent a lot of money last night...bleh

peace out